I’ve secluded myself away from my one and only family member, and friends over the past few years(death in family, breakup, medical issues). It’s sick to think about how “holidays” feel now, that I experience it more and more on my own. I used to dislike it as a child bc I got too much attention, and now it’s all I wish for lol. Can’t even get my karma high enough to ask for a loan due to this depressing time, so I decided to “vent” it instead.